Day 123: 8/1/2018
I got up an hour late today due to the poor sleeping quality last night. Trying to stick with the plan I had laid out last night, but things went way of the plan. Entirely. At the end of the day, now, I am feeling wasted and worthless.
I really hoped that it would be a good, productive day today but somehow my mind and body did not respond to my willingness. After finishing teaching around 2, I could no longer focus or concentrate on studying. Thus, I went to do the laundry as planned. (At least, there was an accomplishment I made today.) The rest of the evening was nothing on the plan. A friend of mine texted me and asked me to go for a dinner together in the city and there I went with him without thinking twice about my daily plan. I spent a few early evening hours trying a new restaurant and doing some grocery shopping.
Once I got home, it felt great and energetic to go out a bit. I felt more alive and that I did some house chore after getting home. But still I could not get any work done no matter how my inner self tried so hard to tell me to concentrate.
This is not enough. What I have done today was, in fact, 100% failure use of my day. I am now worried that I will have to rush to finish everything when time is running out down the road. I have to do something with this. I have to to avoid that frightening situation to happen! I have to!
Or could it be because I have been under a huge amount of stress without noticing its presence? As a result, I could not sleep well through the night and had to wake up for several times. My thoughts before I fell asleep were also distracting and kept me even more worried. All of these need to change. I need to work more!
Again, another day has passed and the only thing I can do is to work with the remaining time I have. Two more days before the deadline of this Research Method section. I keep telling myself that I still have some time.
8/1/2018 10.27 pm.
8/2/2018 3.03 pm.
